Where'sTheLove?
It seems that living the life you want means
quite a bit of time stubbling around in the dark.
How does one become a more loving person when one is overwhelmed with the needs of the many? Changing old behavior patterns, old thought patterns and opening oneself up to the love that surrounds us is quite challenging when there's not a break in the everyday. Work, kids extracuricular activities, caring for home, feeding the family, being engaged in relationships with family and friends are all valued time spent that is rewarded. However, these endeavors take a great deal of energy and when the flow for oneself seems to be trickling in, it can make a "love-seeking-attemptress" quite crazy. I'm the type of person that needs time alone. Time to hideaway. Time to daydream. Time to reflect. Time to listen to the very still quiet voice of love...that tells me I am worthy of all that I desire, that soothes my urgency and reminds me that this doesn't have to be painful. Oh how a part of me wishes I could runaway to a mountain top and practice in solitude, though this is not the course I will be taking. I will cry and stomp my feet until I make "my time" my time and my loved ones closest to me will watch in horrified confusion thinking it's something they've done. I do my best to express myself, but ultimately it's up to me to take care of these needs I have. So, after a night and a morning of reconnection, I am ready to get back to it. Get back into my life that is filled with all the love I am open to receiving. Where's the love? I dare to ask...where isn't it?
"We change best when we are hidden. Moths know this."
~Christopher DeVinck~
